Letting Go New Beginnings
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Of Letting Go And New Beginnings

Hey there! I am back! I have been idle for the past few days because a lot of things happened that sapped out the energy out of me. I thought I should share it so here it is.

Last Wednesday has been one of the hardest days in my career life. It was a day full of mixed emotions that I had to take control, else I would have cried. In fact, I am supposed to write this post on the day I quitted my corporate work but I was too tired to even finish it.

I graduated year May 2012 but I started working as an Associate Software Engineer on March of that year. I am a degree holder of Bachelor of Science in Information Technology where 1 year was spent in taking up AB Mass Communication because I thought I should become a journalist or a writer.

I was a shifter. I shifted courses because IT is more practical, they said. Well, it is – as one of the industries that have the highest paying jobs. πŸ™‚

In college, I have learned to love computer programming and forgot about writing for awhile. I told myself that it will be the career that I will push through. That I will pursue my passion for writing on a later part of my life.

Fast forward to my corporate years, there were a lot of things happened. I got hired, then I was retrenched, then got hired again but I’ve quit because of personal reasons. Then I got a chance to be part of an awesome company with awesome people whom I love but I got retrenched again for the lack of projects. It was so depressing and frustrating that I have lost my job not just once, but twice, and to the companies which I really loved the people and its environment. But I was able to recover from those, pretty fast I may say. I stayed in my 4th company for more than 2 years. I enjoyed doing my job because I am also with fun-loving teammates. But I know deep inside that there is something missing.

Then there’s one instance that changed my life. It is the day when I became a Mother.

Motherhood is the turning point of my life. I was just myself before. Then I became a wife. And now, a Momma.Β It was indeed overwhelming and I had to share and express it, so this blog was revamped to become my haul for my Momma Life.

Writing made me feel that I am who I am. It’s one of the things that gave me fulfillment aside from mothering my son, of course.

You know the popular saying by Confucius?

Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life.

It is in writing that I have felt it. It is my passion. It is something that I wanted to improve on. And it is my calling. More than just computer programming or finding software defects. Along with being a woman of God, a wife, and a mother.

And last Wednesday, I have freed myself. It took me a very long time before I have realized that writing is what I really wanted to do in life. Now, it made sense to me why I got retrenched twice. It’s now clear to me why I had a hard time finding a job in line with being a software engineer. God has been telling me that I am taking the wrong path all along… Every day, I would always pray for God to give me more strength for my everyday struggle as a yaya-less wife and mother. Every day is tough. Every day, I am tired.

Do you imagine letting go of a thing that you thought you really want so you chased it, looked for it, did whatever it takes to finally hold it in your hands? It’s what I have gone through. It’s what I learned to do.

I left my day job, my corporate life, so

  • I can spend more quality time with my family,
  • I can focus on more important things – which matters to me most (like building my writing/blogging career).
  • I can give way to my plan of being a WAHM (work-at-home-mom).

I have been freed.Β  I have finally let go. Yes, it was hard. It was one of the toughest decisions I have ever made. But it is worth it. And now, to summarize (and cut all the drama), this is me, finally waving goodbye to the corporate life (which I thought was really my dream), and saying hello to my new venture as a blogger, a soon-to-be WAHM, and a full-time wife and mother to my family.

Of Letting Go and New Beginnings
When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be. When I let go of what I have, I receive what I need. –Lao Tzu

A leap of faith, indeed. So help me God.

22 Comments

  1. I feel you, when I was pregnant, I never thought that I will resign and choose to be a full-time mom. But motherhood can really change your plans.

    “Surrender to what is. Let go of what was. Have faith in what will be”

  2. We have so much in common!!! I graduated from college in May 2012 also and a proud mom of a 21 month old!!! Y

  3. The hopes and desires of being a WAHM awaken again as I read your post. I really really really want to stay at home and be with my family. But our current situation can’t afford it if I’ll give up my job. :'(
    I am praying that God gives me a clearer plan so I can be on the right track. Anyway, you’re such an inspiring mom! God bless you and your family and thanks for sharing!

  4. I secretly dream of being a WAHM too, but I fear it would be too difficult for my family to depend on just one income source, plus bills piles fast. I am happy for you Sis.

  5. When you’re young, you have the luxury to choose your career and work on it. That’s why I’ve started teaching my kids young regarding pursuing their passion. I’m happy for you and I wish you success!

  6. I’m happy for you that you found your way back to your passion. It’s something that I teach my coaching clients… that it’s possible to make your passion your profession. You just need a little more patience and determination to make it happen. And when it does happen, you will feel fully alive! πŸ™‚ If you need a coach as you go through this transition, feel free to contact me. That’s what I do! πŸ™‚

  7. Hi Michelle! Thanks for sharing your story and courageous life-changing decision to pursue your passion. I went through the reasons of your decision and I admire you for balancing the most important aspects of your life at this point – family, passion and career. Happy to have read your blog post and listening to your heart’s desires. πŸ™‚

  8. Lady Anne Louise Barrun

    I feel you but unlike you I still don’t have enough courage to quit my corporate job. I still need it, my family needs it. Good thing I have my mother who is taking care of my son but there are times I wish I am always there for him. I also started blogging when I got pregnant. Truly motherhood is the turning point of every woman. Goodluck on your new life as a blogger/full-time mom & wife/WAHM.

  9. xotheurbancat

    When you became a mother… All you wanted to do is to serve your child. In my case, even though I wanted to do that, I just can’t (maybe just now).

    Congratulations for you have freed yourself in the corporate world and you are now in your path of pursuing your writing career and being a stay at home mom.

  10. It may took a while for us to know what is our real ‘calling’ but I’m glad you did already! I think I did too, for a being a mom as well πŸ˜‰ Never thought it would be this fun being a momma! πŸ˜‰ And I’m a WAHM as well hihi πŸ™‚

  11. One thing I can attest to is when I decided to become a SaHm and then a WaHM is that God provides. And I am not even the slightest bit religious. I believe, whether we stay in our work or in our homes, our decision would always entail sacrifices. Glad that you found courage in choosing this path. πŸ™‚

  12. A good step I may say. I finally left my corporate job last year to look after my now nine-months old baby. It was a hard decision but being with my boys everyday and being able to feed them, play and joke with them are all worth the giving up and letting go. Good luck and enjoy motherhood.

  13. It’s absolutely liberating to let go of things that we thought we love but didn’t and welcome with open arms the road towards achieving our dreams and following our hearts’ desire. Good luck on this journey, sis!

  14. What a leap of faith! I am proud of you. Being a WAHM is no easy feat — in fact, to be honest, it’s a LOT harder than regular office work because you have to stay on top of both your job and your household at the same time — but if you’re pursuing your passion, no job is too difficult. Go go go!

  15. Good for you! I’m the same. I’ve always loved writing. Back in HS, my teachers told me that I’m good at it. I took up computer science in college though but I continued writing and joining contests. Now that I’ve resigned from my IT job and simply blogging, I feel that I’m right where I’m supposed to be. Just not earning yet. Haha

  16. I also left the corporate world to focus on my family and I think that’s the best decision I’ve made.

  17. I envy you for making the choice to be a wahm! Sana ako din! But we do have different situations so I might as well just enjoy blogging on my free time for the meantime. We should really go on the things that we love the most. It keeps the passion burning.

  18. rollcoastermom

    I remember writing a post very similar to this because, like you, I also only pursued a writing career a few years back, when I was already in my 30s. Writing can be really rewarding but I found that it can also be very exhausting. Haha! I guess, it also depends on the writing projects you accept though. I’m actually taking a bit of a break from writing now. Good luck to you though. πŸ™‚

  19. I know the feeling! I, too, quit a good-paying job with prestigious position. I was being offered more than what I expected but I refused because I felt siffocated and knew I had to channel my attention to my husband and our plan to build a family. It was very hard letting go at first but time passed and things gradually became better. I came back to writing which is my first love and spend more quality time with my family. I can’t be happier! πŸ™‚

  20. Nina Sogue

    That was a very difficult decision. I wanted to quit too, but our finances would be greatly affected. I’m so happy that you listened to your heart. Praying for the best πŸ™‚

    Nina | http://www.ninasogue.com/

  21. I have never worked in the corporate world save for the three months I spent in London. It was just not for me. Despite everyone pressuring me to get an 8-5 job, I went with my guts and pursued my “nomad” dream of working while travelling. I’ve been doing that since 2008 when I was in college and continue to do so until now that I have my own family. I’m sure it’s a scary leap for you but let me tell you that it’s going to be a fun ride! πŸ™‚

  22. […] first place (because of some traumatic experience I’ve had when I was still a child), still I did quit my corporate job just last May 2016. It was indeed, a leap of faith. The Lord knows how I fought hard to be in the career path that I […]

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