Hey there! I am back! I have been idle for the past few days because a lot of things happened that sapped out the energy out of me. I thought I should share it so here it is.
Last Wednesday has been one of the hardest days in my career life. It was a day full of mixed emotions that I had to take control, else I would have cried. In fact, I am supposed to write this post on the day I quitted my corporate work but I was too tired to even finish it.
I graduated year May 2012 but I started working as an Associate Software Engineer on March of that year. I am a degree holder of Bachelor of Science in Information Technology where 1 year was spent in taking up AB Mass Communication because I thought I should become a journalist or a writer.
I was a shifter. I shifted courses because IT is more practical, they said. Well, it is – as one of the industries that have the highest paying jobs. 🙂
In college, I have learned to love computer programming and forgot about writing for awhile. I told myself that it will be the career that I will push through. That I will pursue my passion for writing on a later part of my life.
Fast forward to my corporate years, there were a lot of things happened. I got hired, then I was retrenched, then got hired again but I’ve quit because of personal reasons. Then I got a chance to be part of an awesome company with awesome people whom I love but I got retrenched again for the lack of projects. It was so depressing and frustrating that I have lost my job not just once, but twice, and to the companies which I really loved the people and its environment. But I was able to recover from those, pretty fast I may say. I stayed in my 4th company for more than 2 years. I enjoyed doing my job because I am also with fun-loving teammates. But I know deep inside that there is something missing.
Then there’s one instance that changed my life. It is the day when I became a Mother.
Motherhood is the turning point of my life. I was just myself before. Then I became a wife. And now, a Momma. It was indeed overwhelming and I had to share and express it, so this blog was revamped to become my haul for my Momma Life.
Writing made me feel that I am who I am. It’s one of the things that gave me fulfillment aside from mothering my son, of course.
You know the popular saying by Confucius?
Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life.
It is in writing that I have felt it. It is my passion. It is something that I wanted to improve on. And it is my calling. More than just computer programming or finding software defects. Along with being a woman of God, a wife, and a mother.
And last Wednesday, I have freed myself. It took me a very long time before I have realized that writing is what I really wanted to do in life. Now, it made sense to me why I got retrenched twice. It’s now clear to me why I had a hard time finding a job in line with being a software engineer. God has been telling me that I am taking the wrong path all along… Every day, I would always pray for God to give me more strength for my everyday struggle as a yaya-less wife and mother. Every day is tough. Every day, I am tired.
Do you imagine letting go of a thing that you thought you really want so you chased it, looked for it, did whatever it takes to finally hold it in your hands? It’s what I have gone through. It’s what I learned to do.
I left my day job, my corporate life, so
- I can spend more quality time with my family,
- I can focus on more important things – which matters to me most (like building my writing/blogging career).
- I can give way to my plan of being a WAHM (work-at-home-mom).
I have been freed. I have finally let go. Yes, it was hard. It was one of the toughest decisions I have ever made. But it is worth it. And now, to summarize (and cut all the drama), this is me, finally waving goodbye to the corporate life (which I thought was really my dream), and saying hello to my new venture as a blogger, a soon-to-be WAHM, and a full-time wife and mother to my family.
A leap of faith, indeed. So help me God.
Live. Laugh. Love. Write. Pray.